i remember a time... where i smiled and laughed a lot more than i frowned... vaguely...

how things have changed. is it the school? the teachers? or my friends? or me...? i wish i knew.

but things have certainly changed. from what i was before i entered J1, and at the beginning of J1, when my classmates would always be asking me, "Why are u smiling so much?" and "Why are you so happy?"... now its, "What's wrong with you? Why do you look so sad?" or "Why do you look so pissed?"... i which i knew. i long for the time when i was happy again... truly happy, not for a day or two like i have to desparately hope for now...

it seems like a dream though... all too far away too.